Everyone wants to know the truth about their favorite celebrities' heart's desire. Within the masculine culture of Hip Hop and Hollywood, there is a well-known gay subculture that industry insiders are keenly aware of but choose to hide. Terrance Dean worked his way up for more than ten years in the entertainment industry from intern to executive, and has lived the life of glitz and bling along with Hollywood and Hip Hop's most glamorous. With a family full of secrets and working in an industry founded on maleness where one's job, friendships, and reputation all depend on remaining on the down low and in hiding Dean writes a revealing account of the journey of coming out from hiding. Full of startling anecdotes and incredible true stories, Hiding in Hip Hop is not a traditional tell-all. A personal and poignant memoir, it is also one of the most provocative and honest looks at stardom and sexuality.
Disc 1Welcome to Hollywood 3What Would You Do? 13More Than I Can Bear 21The Beautiful Struggle 29My Life 35Money, Money, Money 38Deja vu (I've Been Here Before) 42Breakdown 45Catching Feelings 52Disc 2Certainly 57Between You and Me 71Lost Ones 80Last Night 92Dirt Off Your Shoulder 98Homie / Lover / Friend 102Keep Moving On 110Lights! Camera! Action! 119Where the Party At? 134Who Can I Run To? 142Momma 158So Fine 164Emotional Roller Coaster 169Me, Myself, and I 176Disc 3Shake Your Thang 183Next Lifetime 193Mr. Big Stuff 197Heaven 210Whenever, Wherever, Whatever 213Disc 4New York, New York-Big City of Dreams 219If That's Your Boyfriend, He Wasn't Last Night 237Money, Power, and Respect 247This Is Why I'm Hot 256I Think They Like Me 2651999 277Hypnotize 280I Need You Now 284Man in the Mirror 287Missing You 292Quiet Storm 295Acknowledgments 303