A searing, raw memoir of depression that is ultimately uplifting and inspiring.Publishers WeeklyA British fashion industry insider, Brampton wrote for Vogue and the Observer before launching Elle magazine in the U.K. By midlife, she had a successful, creative career, many close friends and a lovely daughter. Everything was going fabulously-until she fell apart. A paralyzing depression gripped her so intensely, she finally acknowledged that she needed to be institutionalized. Unfortunately, she was one of the many with "treatment-resistant depression"-high-tech pharmaceuticals just didn't work for her. As she cycled in and out of mental wards, survived suicide attempts and tried countless therapies, she learned a lot about depression-the stigma surrounding it, how it's triggered, the range of available therapies. With unflinching honesty, she describes her own experiences as well as sharing her research, letting readers "take from it what you need and leave the rest." Brampton is particularly good at describing the currently favored therapies, like cognitive behavioral therapy, positive psychology and cognitive mindfulness behavioral therapy. Her openness to all sorts of treatment, including acupuncture, is refreshing, as is the ease with which she advises friends and family on how to be most helpful. Brampton's story is accessible and endearing. (June)Copyright © Reed Business Information, a division of Reed Elsevier Inc. All rights reserved.
Introduction: Don't Look Down 1Myself So Far 12Bedlam and Leeches 16Throat Monsters and Other Terrors 26Self-Absorption and Symptoms 40Losing My Balance 50Breakdown 65It's No Picnic 74Leaving Hospital 86Fine Is a Four-Letter Word 97Genetics, Family and Other Disorders 109Home Is Another Country 125Emotional Memory 138What We Resist Persists 145The Elephant in the Room 152Who Am I? 168The Second Loony Bin 174Travels Through Therapy 197Withdrawal 208The Beginning of the End 223Suicide, the Last Goodbye 235The Tipping Point 247Making Sense 255Turning Left 270The Useful Stuff 291Coming Through 304Notes 311Helpful Reading 317Thank You 319Index 321